Archive for April 30, 2011

Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?

You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more?

I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.

…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, reblog.

This is the third part of our escapades in Puerto Galera. The past two days were eventful but not compared on what happened during Black Saturday. We did a mini photo shoot at the roof top of White Beach resort and the pictures turn out well. We watched and recorded the fire dance presentation. Finally we hit the waves and enjoyed the beach and involved ourselves with a little raffle with prizes out of the ordinary. We partied all night long at Mikko’s Bar and we all got drunk and did things I could’ve never imagined we are capable of. And without further adieu here is our story.

Day 3 April 23, 2011 (Black Saturday)

It was early morning and I have a massive headache because of the hangover dealt by Tanduay Ice and Mindoro Sling. Most of my friends are already up and taken their breakfast. Luckily Hanz haven’t had his breakfast yet so I asked him to go with me. I had rice chao fan of Chowking, I’m really starving and I think Hanz just had buko shake from Fruitas.

When we came back they are just fooling around and exchanging jokes and remembering the things that we did last night especially the 7 Waterfalls sessions. Derick then suggested that we take pictures of ourselves since we have only a day to take snapshots of our memory here in Galera. In preparation for the pictorial, Euan wore his red contact lens that several times irritated his eyes. The red contact lens created an effect of vampire look on Euan so I decided to take pictures of him coming out from the closet for an eerie look but it turned out really funny because of the poses he made. Me, Hanz, James, Euan, and Derick decided to take it to another level by taking pictures on the rooftop where the sun radiates scorching heat but it is the perfect place to take our out of this world poses hahaha! I think it was around 12nn or 1pm. Enzo and Ton don’t feel like joining us because they are still sleepy so we went to the rooftop. We started to take pictures and it was fun. Hanz finally had his chance to execute his winning pose that he researched on the Internet. And for me I was able to do a jump shot that is really cool. Derick’s camera is really something, that’s the first time I held a camera that can zoom in 30x and it is without zooming lens. Hanz’s camera on the other hand is ok… End of sharing hahahaha!!! After the photo shoot we went back to the room. We just waited around 3pm so that we can head to the beach and have our yearly ritual, the Banana Boating.

In the afternoon we decided to hit the beach. There are a lot of people gathered around different booths, I guess they making the most out of their trip as well. While we are waiting for our turn in riding the Banana Boat we hang out in the booth of EZ and Frenzy. A man there tried to sell us a bag of goodies. It has towel, baller wrist band, some condoms and EZ, in these bags there is a piece of heart that will be used for the raffle later. If these hearts matches any of the heart tattooed on the models then we will win a thousand pesos and added gift packs. Hanz and Euan purchased each. Then it’s our turn for the Banana Boat. Unfortunately we have other people coming with us since there are only seven of us and the capacity of the boat is 10 so they need to fill those slots. I even remembered what Hanz said that we need to be careful for the three strangers are overweight hahaha! So we get on the boat and it started towing us towards the vast sea. It is really beautiful when you are looking at Puerto Galera in this view. The clean blue water keeps on splashing on our faces, the cool breeze of the wind can be felt through the skin, and the wave are just in rhythm… while in this thought the Speedboat pulling us makes a sharp turn and then suddenly we started flipping to the water. I know I kicked someone but I didn’t pay attention because we are laughing so hard we barely felt the pain when somebody hit you or goes over you, it’s just those moment that you want to laugh and laugh and laugh making you weak and you can’t barely get on the Banana Boat again. The speedboat did it two more times and we are totally exhausted. It lasted more than 25 minutes but it is worth it.

After riding the Banana Boat we hang out at the beach and we took a few more pictures for souvenirs. We also saw Aljheal and Oliver on the sand. There is already music playing and then Aljheal saw me dancing he challenged me for a dance showdown on the beach. We kept on laughing at each other and Hanz saw the showdown and it was crazy, we are making all sorts of movement and Aljheal kept on taunting me to give more but I had enough hahaha. We walked around the beach and watched a few people playing volleyball. While they are watching I decided to stay in the water for a while then I noticed something floating a shore. I grabbed it, fortunately it is not shit, it’s a thousand pesos. Hahaha I said to myself we will have a very good time later. I took a few pictures of the sunset and it was amazing, although it reminded me of the coming end of our vacation. We head back to our room and ready ourselves for the last party of our whole Galera trip.

We decided to eat first at Manalo’s Restaurant. While we are on our way we saw the fire dancers performing. I asked for Derick’s camera and caught their performance on video. After filming the fire dance we went ahead and finished our dinner. After eating we watched Choknat and other standup comedian. They are hosting the show sponsored by Frenzy and EZ. We stayed and watched for a while and we had fun. Some of the phrases that I will never forget are “Pabona ng Taon” and “1, 2 ready”. Now the show is almost done when Choknat announced that the last raffle is for those who have halves of the hearts, she asked them to come on stage and check if it matches the one tattooed on the models. Euan and Hanz hesitated to come up the stage having a fear of being insulted in front of many people. So I asked for the heart and go on stage, luckily it is a match and we won an extra 1000 pesos plus goodies.

We headed to Mikko’s Bar to enjoy our last night and we are planning drink and party till we drop. We saw Ateh and asked for a table and she immediately gave us a good spot. There is loud music, beautiful people everywhere and of course booooozeee!!! It is our night to unwind, to leave all problems behind and party… and I really mean party haaarrrddd!!! During the night we saw friendly faces, there’s Ian, Aljheal and Oliver, Allen, Kiko, Jeff and few more friends. Drink dance and enjoy, we literally knock ourselves out. After a few drinks it is as if the liquor is not getting into me but after a few more shots it finally hit me… BIG TIME!!! I was so drunk that I have very little memory of what happened that night. All I can remember is that, I talked to a couple and I really don’t know what I am saying and I remembered his partner telling me “Are you aware that you are talking to my partner”, I think I replied “Well the hell I care, I am not hitting on your partner”, then I left. One more thing, Hanz told me that a barangay council stopping me in throwing chairs. And then the inevitable happened, I threw up so many times that even my friends almost got into a fight when a girl tried to ridicule me. Haha I am just so lucky that they are there to carry me back to our room. Really I’ve never been so drunk in my life, only in Galera hahaha. Well that finally ended our last night in Puerto Galera and there is no moment that I regret.